I have only one left and I think there are people standing on it.
Monday, February 28, 2011
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Exodus Out...of El Paso
I knew the day was going to come. I had been asked and even pleaded with. I am stubborn. I really don't like change. Actually I don't like change at all. I know DEEP in my heart that change is good, it is a time for growth and a time for renewing. It is also hard and it tends to stretch one's limits. That is the point, I guess.
So, Leon and I, Sheridan and baby Sawyer will be hauling all of our goods to the hot SW valley of Phoenix in June. It will be ok. I don't love the heat, but after the brutal winter storm that we had a couple of weeks ago, I choose warm over cold. I will embrace the new life and will "bloom where I am planted". I can do that!
But, we are not the only family members exiting this border town. Lauren, Derek and baby Titan will move to Georgia in June. I will sure miss being able to play with that little boy whenever I want to, seeing his sweet face and little teeth (with the gap in the middle) when he smiles at me. I hope they have a guest room...I have a feeling I will be there ALOT!!
Colin is the only one that is staying behind. He has moved out on his own and has a good job so he does not want to leave and have to start over. Good plan. We wish him lots of luck and happiness and safety here. We will miss him.
So, El Paso, there is a reason that we lived here for 5 1/2 years. We have loved and learned and grown. We have shared and laughed and cried. We are leaving here better people. Thank you for what you have taught us. We might miss you for a minute!
So, Leon and I, Sheridan and baby Sawyer will be hauling all of our goods to the hot SW valley of Phoenix in June. It will be ok. I don't love the heat, but after the brutal winter storm that we had a couple of weeks ago, I choose warm over cold. I will embrace the new life and will "bloom where I am planted". I can do that!
But, we are not the only family members exiting this border town. Lauren, Derek and baby Titan will move to Georgia in June. I will sure miss being able to play with that little boy whenever I want to, seeing his sweet face and little teeth (with the gap in the middle) when he smiles at me. I hope they have a guest room...I have a feeling I will be there ALOT!!
Colin is the only one that is staying behind. He has moved out on his own and has a good job so he does not want to leave and have to start over. Good plan. We wish him lots of luck and happiness and safety here. We will miss him.
So, El Paso, there is a reason that we lived here for 5 1/2 years. We have loved and learned and grown. We have shared and laughed and cried. We are leaving here better people. Thank you for what you have taught us. We might miss you for a minute!
Thursday, February 10, 2011
It's almost here...
It is almost Valentine's Day...my FAVORITE holiday. Is that weird? Probably. I decorate the house with hearts. Lots of hearts. Paper lantern hearts. Heart-shaped bowls. Hearts that hang. Heart clings. Even heart lights! I set out Valentine candy (that rarely makes it to V-Day!) and I bake sugar cookies and decorate them to give away (of course I have to taste them first to make sure they are fit to give away!)
When the kids were small "Cupid" would come and visit our house all day long on V-Day..and that night, he would ring the doorbell and leave their last goodies of the day on the doorstep! I miss those days.
Show more love. I am going to try and make everyday Valentine's Day!!!!
When the kids were small "Cupid" would come and visit our house all day long on V-Day..and that night, he would ring the doorbell and leave their last goodies of the day on the doorstep! I miss those days.
Show more love. I am going to try and make everyday Valentine's Day!!!!
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
The ties that bind
Have you ever thought about the ties that bind? They are strong and they are persistent. They are patient and they are most definitely pulled on.
My Dad's sister ,Hannah, and her husband, Leo, both passed away in January, and not only that, they did it 2 days apart. Some people are so lucky! He has always said that he would not let her go without him, and that he didn't!!! I have often wondered about the bonds of love and I do believe that they are stronger than we recognize. We love them and their family. Until we meet again, Uncle Leo and Aunt Hannah!
But this is not all. My sister-in-law's parents died within a week of each other and she always comments about how it all went when her Dad got to Heaven. He most likely said "Oh, I can't be alone, I need my wife here." And he pulled.
I took care of a couple in Carlsbad and although she wasn't very old, she had been bed bound for years. He husband was much older than her. She contracted an infection and passed away. 5 days later, he, too was gone. And she pulled.
A neighbor lady of my mother-in-law had dementia. Her husband had a few health problems but nothing fatal. She passed away and 3 days later he passed. And she pulled.
Pure love. Strong love. Binding love. These are the ties that bind.
My Dad's sister ,Hannah, and her husband, Leo, both passed away in January, and not only that, they did it 2 days apart. Some people are so lucky! He has always said that he would not let her go without him, and that he didn't!!! I have often wondered about the bonds of love and I do believe that they are stronger than we recognize. We love them and their family. Until we meet again, Uncle Leo and Aunt Hannah!
But this is not all. My sister-in-law's parents died within a week of each other and she always comments about how it all went when her Dad got to Heaven. He most likely said "Oh, I can't be alone, I need my wife here." And he pulled.
I took care of a couple in Carlsbad and although she wasn't very old, she had been bed bound for years. He husband was much older than her. She contracted an infection and passed away. 5 days later, he, too was gone. And she pulled.
A neighbor lady of my mother-in-law had dementia. Her husband had a few health problems but nothing fatal. She passed away and 3 days later he passed. And she pulled.
Pure love. Strong love. Binding love. These are the ties that bind.
Friday, January 28, 2011
Mascara Blobs in the Eye
Just thinking about this has had me laughing for hours.
Lauren just happens to be my child who loves, no, I mean LOVES to pick at things...her scabs, pimples, moles, hang nails, and she is not a respecter of others things..she will pick at yours too.
As she and I were Sheridan's "coaches" during labor, we were heavily involved in the process of helping Sheridan to focus and push! So, while we were getting ready to encourage Sher to push one more time Lauren looks at me and says "Oh my word Mom" (all the while I am thinking about what the heck could be going wrong) then she continues "you have a HUGE blob of mascara in your eye..should I pick it out?"
I will say, though, that she has precision picking skills. Now we need to work on the timing!
Lauren just happens to be my child who loves, no, I mean LOVES to pick at things...her scabs, pimples, moles, hang nails, and she is not a respecter of others things..she will pick at yours too.
As she and I were Sheridan's "coaches" during labor, we were heavily involved in the process of helping Sheridan to focus and push! So, while we were getting ready to encourage Sher to push one more time Lauren looks at me and says "Oh my word Mom" (all the while I am thinking about what the heck could be going wrong) then she continues "you have a HUGE blob of mascara in your eye..should I pick it out?"
I will say, though, that she has precision picking skills. Now we need to work on the timing!
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Birth Day
The date of the induction was scheduled for Monday, January 24. It was Saturday, the 22nd and I was wracked with concern for Sheridan and praying that she would not have to be induced. Having had all 4 of mine born by c-section, I don't know a whole lot about vaginal births, except that being induced typically means a long, hard and sometimes complicated labor. All day on Saturday I had a nagging feeling that she was going to go in to labor on Sunday. Sunday morning came... Sunday afternoon came and she commented to me "here it is, Sunday, and nothing has happened". All I could say was "the day isn't over". At 8 p.m. her labor started....
At 2 a.m. Lauren and I drove her to the hospital and at 12 :14 p.m. a beautiful, dark head full of hair little boy was born. Sawyer Scott Hargrove. The birth went smooth and Sheridan healed quickly.
I am so thankful for the opportunities that I have had to watch my daughters give birth and become Mothers themselves. What a miracle! I am so thankful for my girls. They are truly my best friends and I love them so much. I feel honored that Heavenly Father has given me the blessing of being their Mom.
At 2 a.m. Lauren and I drove her to the hospital and at 12 :14 p.m. a beautiful, dark head full of hair little boy was born. Sawyer Scott Hargrove. The birth went smooth and Sheridan healed quickly.
I am so thankful for the opportunities that I have had to watch my daughters give birth and become Mothers themselves. What a miracle! I am so thankful for my girls. They are truly my best friends and I love them so much. I feel honored that Heavenly Father has given me the blessing of being their Mom.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
New chapters in life
Today while I was at the gym with 2 friends of mine we began to talk. That in itself is not unusual, of course. I can talk almost anyone up a storm and back down again!! But it was the topic of our conversation that has had me thinking all day long about some things.
We women have an interesting journey to travel. I am so thankful that we were chosen to be partners with Heavenly Father in being able to bear children and be mothers. I am so thankful to be a wife, a daughter, a sister. I am grateful to be a woman. But there is another side. Because we are women and we do have the wonderful opportunity to bear children, we are very defined by them, our identities rest with them. Wrong or not, that is just the way it is. So, when our children grow up and don't "need" us as much..we become lost, trying to find ourselves amidst the settling dust of our children's lives.
Some days I feel so sad because I feel like I am not contributing in any way, anywhere. I think of going to work and that doesn't feel right. I want to be available to help my kids wherever and whenever I can. I think of going back to school AGAIN and that doesn't feel too bad except that I am old.
So my friends and I decided that once a week we are going to go out to lunch and go shopping or do some other engaging activity..I don't know if we will find one that beats shopping!! Wish us luck!
We women have an interesting journey to travel. I am so thankful that we were chosen to be partners with Heavenly Father in being able to bear children and be mothers. I am so thankful to be a wife, a daughter, a sister. I am grateful to be a woman. But there is another side. Because we are women and we do have the wonderful opportunity to bear children, we are very defined by them, our identities rest with them. Wrong or not, that is just the way it is. So, when our children grow up and don't "need" us as much..we become lost, trying to find ourselves amidst the settling dust of our children's lives.
Some days I feel so sad because I feel like I am not contributing in any way, anywhere. I think of going to work and that doesn't feel right. I want to be available to help my kids wherever and whenever I can. I think of going back to school AGAIN and that doesn't feel too bad except that I am old.
So my friends and I decided that once a week we are going to go out to lunch and go shopping or do some other engaging activity..I don't know if we will find one that beats shopping!! Wish us luck!
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